thinking

i was watching meet joe black on hbo the other day... there was this part in the movie where the character of brad asks the son-in-law what love was like. the guy replied something like "it's when you know everything about each other... know each other's darkest secrets... and they accept you... you're free... free to love each other... completely." somehow, the line didn't sound sappy or cheesy to me at all. strangely, i felt that, fact of the matter is, it rang so true.

we've been the best of friends for a little more over a decade. my day is never complete if i haven't spoken with my s.o.; the day's events, stories, chismis and whatnot seem inanimate, surreal, almost insignificant, unless i get to spill, rant, rave and recount all the details back to him. he's seen me through my ups and downs, constantly held my hand as i waded through life's barrage of random hellos and good byes, tolerated my annoying habits and have been honest enough to give me a slap back to reality when i need it...

we've somehow gotten over and beyond the infatuated dating phase, weirdly extended the probable feeling that honeymooners get for one another, and have meshed everything up into this great, grand and genuine friendship.

for a different perspective, let me put it this way: you remember the feeling when you had this good friend that you kind of developed a really big crush on because he's been so wonderful to you? and you somehow, thought that this friend/crush of yours can never be anything more than that 'cause it will just 'ruin your friendship' ? and as much as you want to stay clear of that feeling of being infatuated, you just can't help but like him more everyday? that's the way i feel.

i was supposed to meet him for our usual date one time, but i got in 30 minutes too early. i decided to go to the bookstore and flip through some on the sale rack (yes,i'm cheap that way). i don't know how it happened, but i somehow got distracted and started checking out this guy browsing through some other book s by the shelves. i was so drawn to him that i followed to get a closer look. imagine my embarrassed and happy surprise to realize it was jeric. :)

gawd: i apparently STILL have the biggest crush on him!

we find comfort in each other, and we enjoy the simplest of things...
i still blush. i still get kilig. and i still find some of his jokes corny, and yet i guffaw like crazy.

we find comfort just hanging- out at his cousin's house and celebrate the camaraderie with an endless supply of green manggoes, bagoong and a slew of other street food... :) on most days, we'd stay at home and watch downloaded movies, while munching on his sister's freshly baked goodies. on days that we do decide to go out- out, we have a built-in radar for each other that we can sort of 'echo-locate' for the other in a sale- crazed mall, sans our mobiles.

darnit.
what if we decided to call it quits?
i should have other friends, just in case...

but then again, who could ever come close? :) i love him.