it's lovely

to watch people fall... and watch them get (satisfyingly!) grimey as their own **** hits the fan! :D teeheehee!

buti nga... that's what people get when they convene and plot and pointedly make an effort to disrupt and ruin my good day...
HA! they SOOO don't know who they're messing with. ;)

while my kids and i had fun, i gleefully watched 'them' pick up the spoils, stress and lick their wounds.
hmmph! that's what YOU get, biatches!!! muwahahaha!!! >:D

it's nice to feel attractive

i mean, yeah, DUH.
but i never really took it into serious account, until yesterday.
*mind you: this is my ME moment. stop reading if you can't stand it.*

i've always felt personally good about myself since i'm always surrounded by tiny tots who love me unconditionally. the hugs, kisses, sweet hair caresses and the endless supply of little drawings and notes to teacher always made me feel happy, loved and beautiful here. :) my s.o. of over a decade never fails to make me blush with kilig with his one liners and sweet nothings. but strangely, i always thought that well, kids ARE kids, and would love their next adviser as much as they initially loved me, and my s.o., well, i kinda thought that it's the normal expected reaction when you're in a relationship for that long... i just never thought i was really attractive, till yesterday.

i gave a career talk to about 4 schools, who numbered to over 400 attendees. it was a mixed group US males and females. i guess it went pretty ok, since i got a lot active participation from both the guys and ladies during the event, which from my perspective, is a really good sign since that meant that they didn't find me THAT intimidating. :) so anyway, sure, i usually get hit-on by the professionals, but to get the flirty eye from several US senior students?! incredulous! i have to admit, that was a VERY nice ego boost! gawd knows how badly i needed one at the moment... but seriously, it was an unexpected reaction: i mean, yeah, hormones and pheromones ARE most likely to be high (given their age and the fact that it was a day before v-day), but given my size, my weight, my age, my profession... i didn't think i would be to their taste.. ;) not that they stood a chance. but still. it's just a ME moment taking over and talking here. a sliver of hope that yeah, maybe my kids and my s.o. aren't exactly biased with the way they treat and see me...

maybe i AM still puurrteee! ;D

sidenote

i also came to realize that, much as i try, i can only take so much ear abuse at a get together... i will always be a bigger fan of just chatty gossiping and sensible conversation. i realized that i DO pass up on some people whom i assume probably grew up in some place where they were mountains away from each other: hollering and breaking sound barriers was a necessity they got used to, just to pass on the news to another village... *sigh* i'm sure there's a part of them that's pretty decent, but i guess i don't have much patience to wait for any sign of sensible intelligence when they start working on local celebrity gossip... don't get me wrong: i'm normally ok with any kind of thought, idea or hear-say anyone may want to share... it's just that i just CAN NOT tolerate hearing any of it in 'hard core PALENGKERA vernacular'. *ugh* i guess some habits are just hard to break for some (both mine and their's). i'm not all for straddling what seems to be my high horse, but i guess this is my 'me' moment. sounding like a boring ditz is my way of shoo-ing away people i just don't like at all.my way of weeding out the bad, i suppose. at least i'm not being outright rude... or am i?! heeheehee....

today i realized....

we just had our annual sportsfest in school, and you see parents/ teams backstabbing each other over a few measly points. parents complaining, crying and hollering... GAWD. all the backstabbing, rumor-mongering and the low blows are so *sigh* ridiculously pathetic. TACKY. and these are the supposed educated bracket?! unbelievable. no wonder the children turn out to be future brats... ick: you see your mom/ dad shouting, yelling, whining, boo-ing teams at a 'friendly family game'... ugh: the fruit wouldn't fall far from the tree... i feel so disgusted. they are such a pain....

and speaking of insecurities, a friend of mine mentioned a few moments ago that this pain-in-the-ass 'cohort' has TONS of insecurities... which explained her desperate and annoying behavior. DUH. she's so ironic. she's flippy brand-conscious because the poor person can hardly afford; she's quick to note and ask for relationship flaws because hers is so demented and retarded; she's so defensive on her 'communication prowess' because... well, ok: guess i'll stop there because i don't want to stoop that low. :) but seriously: i'm glad to know that i'm not the only one who finds her pathetic and annoying. not that i want people to rally and gang up on her, just to get even... but eitherway: HURRAH for the enlightened ones! ;)

and just so i can post it:
t.i: the manner and the content of things that a person speaks of and takes interest in DOES tell how intelligent you are. (duh, stupid.)
'rents: the family sportsfest is a time for children to enjoy the company of their parents while they are in school... activities done here are all just for fun and games. not a matter of life and death. it is an opportunity to celebrate unity in diversity, not a time to encourage rifts and create bigger, wider ravines among teammates and ripple family feuds.... besides: your children will be watching how you behave and handle a stressful/ high- pressure situation: don't you think you should behave appropriately as a way of setting a good example for your child? i'd hate to hear you complain about your child's tantrum: i might flip my head too far back while laughing at your face and blissfully break my neck!!! ;p

AAARGH.