it's nice to feel attractive

i mean, yeah, DUH.
but i never really took it into serious account, until yesterday.
*mind you: this is my ME moment. stop reading if you can't stand it.*

i've always felt personally good about myself since i'm always surrounded by tiny tots who love me unconditionally. the hugs, kisses, sweet hair caresses and the endless supply of little drawings and notes to teacher always made me feel happy, loved and beautiful here. :) my s.o. of over a decade never fails to make me blush with kilig with his one liners and sweet nothings. but strangely, i always thought that well, kids ARE kids, and would love their next adviser as much as they initially loved me, and my s.o., well, i kinda thought that it's the normal expected reaction when you're in a relationship for that long... i just never thought i was really attractive, till yesterday.

i gave a career talk to about 4 schools, who numbered to over 400 attendees. it was a mixed group US males and females. i guess it went pretty ok, since i got a lot active participation from both the guys and ladies during the event, which from my perspective, is a really good sign since that meant that they didn't find me THAT intimidating. :) so anyway, sure, i usually get hit-on by the professionals, but to get the flirty eye from several US senior students?! incredulous! i have to admit, that was a VERY nice ego boost! gawd knows how badly i needed one at the moment... but seriously, it was an unexpected reaction: i mean, yeah, hormones and pheromones ARE most likely to be high (given their age and the fact that it was a day before v-day), but given my size, my weight, my age, my profession... i didn't think i would be to their taste.. ;) not that they stood a chance. but still. it's just a ME moment taking over and talking here. a sliver of hope that yeah, maybe my kids and my s.o. aren't exactly biased with the way they treat and see me...

maybe i AM still puurrteee! ;D